Sunday, March 17, 2013

Validation of Happiness

I keep noticing that when I'm happy I want to share my happiness way more than anyone probably cares about.  Like tonight, I had a REALLY fun day gaming and I have the strongest urges to update my facebook status with something like: I LOVE MY FRIENDS!! GAMES ARE GREAT! SO ARE THE PEOPLE WHO PLAY THEM! HOW MUCH WONDERFUL CAN FIT INTO ONE DAY?!?!?!
and these things are a) annoying and b) excessive and c) no one cares.  Not to say that my friends aren't invested in my happiness (on some level) or that I shouldn't share being happy with people (because being happy is awesome) but why do I feel this strange need to validate my happiness on some level by sharing it with everyone?  I wonder if it's more about getting attention or if I really do want to share just because I think it will make other people happy that I'm happy...or something else entirely that I'm unwilling to admit to myself possibly...
Moral of the story: I've had a really fantastic day!! I'm so pleased with my life because I have days like this frequently and it feels somewhat unfair to be so happy and love my life so much, but if I can't be happy in my life I'm not living it very well.  I appreciate and love my friends (new and old) in such a way that I am at loss to put words to my feelings and I kind of love that.  I hope for many more days that leave me feeling like this at the end :)

Monday, March 11, 2013

Revival (Attempt 3?)

With intent to blog on my grand adventure (starting September 19th) I feel I should start actually writing things now so that I am well in the habit once I go down-under.  Therefore...I will start weekly postings!  They will probably be mostly ramblings about things and stuff, but I'm good at that and I think the things I write are funny a lot of the time so maybe they'll make you laugh too.
The whole blog concept kind of blows my mind when I think about it - I mean who really reads random stuff other people write? well I do...a lot...I think I follow close to 10 blogs and most of them are written by people I have never met.  I think one of my issues in the past is that I never know if anyone is reading so there is very little motivation to write things that I don't really need to write if no one is going to read if you are reading and think something is funny or you agree or something leave a comment!! or don't and tell me about it later or something...or there's no one reading and I'm just sending my thoughts and opinions out into the blogosphere to take up space and be annoying :P  and that is precisely the part of blogging that terrifies me...I have no idea who is reading my ramblings so I feel like I need to watch what I say in a different way.  I don't have that many boundaries about what to say (or not to say) because I feel pretty centered in who I am and who I want to be and if someone doesn't like that that's ok with me because I  like me and I'm the one I have to live with for the rest of my life.  I also communicate differently with different people and not knowing my audience makes it hard for me like I want so that I know the results...that doesn't make sense, does in my head :P
I've been asking question of the day on Facebook because I think it's fun to ask random questions and see who answers them and I am always surprised by at least one answer, either because it's someone I haven't talked to in a while or because it's not something I expect people to answer that question with, if I really analyzed that I would probably decide that I have more friends than I know and that I should just write whatever I want because someone will read it and like it and someone else will find it totally strange.
One of my pet peeves about blogs are posts that are too long and don't really say anything, short ones that say nothing are ok.  This one is too long. I'm sorry.
Have a lovely week!